That's a great question D.B. For me it was getting a taste of something great and then having it taken away suddenly. In this case, repeatedly.

It also ties into what was then a feeling of low self worth, and that fantasy that if only I could get that prize I'll feel worthy of acceptance. Unfortunately, when we give people the power to make us feel whole, we give them the power to make us feel broken. It is, like you said, our own victimization.

Thanks for the read and the comment!